To my teacher... My guide and Confidant

On my to and from office I spend most of the time in Cab catching up on the lost time , be it reading or with Music and somehow for the past week or two I've found my thoughts drifting time and again to the same subject.
It's been 4 years since I moved out of the Law School but somehow it seems only yesterday that Tania and I had walked into the Principlal's room to take a picture or two with her. finding her busy we decided to do what we've always done best... pull a smart one . We got this picture taken o the 2 o us pretending we'd been given a good, well deserved  dress down by her.
But if truth be told it was any thing but that.

One of the very few mentors I could have asked for who left her foot prints so  embedded in my memory that no matter what, I find it hard to forget all that she's done for me . Taking care of me like a mother when I was sick, lifting me up when I'd fallen and above all never judging me , no matter what I did.

I'd always taken pride in saying without a doubt that nothing can frighten me. I lied... I fear going back to AIL only to  see unfamiliar faces, I fear the void I'd feel inside of me when I pass by her room and not find her there, I fear the fear I feel, I fear that I might breakdown and cry.

Fear....

She taught me not to Fear fear. She taught me to be strong.

She was more than just the principal to me ... she was a teacher, a guide , a friend and a confidant.

Missin u tons ma'am

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