毫无永存 !!!


NOTHING LASTS FOREVER!!!


Well! this entry is jus for the heck o it. i've been thinkin bout some stuff for the past few days ... bout how my life's been goin... n Boy! i somehow don't like wht i c... i jus lost my sweetest lil baby Lab ot a bloody viral infection... i wasn't there for her enough... wasn't there when she closed her eyes for gud, wasn't there while she was going through all the pain... & it hurts as hell...

Every one who knows me n knows bout it has been tellinme it wasn't my fault but somehow tht's not helpin... it's ironic how i feel lost as soon as i gethome though i still have a darling lil mutt to take care o... if truth be told he takes care o me more than i o him...


May be TP was rt... God didn't want her to become as naughty as me so he took her away... maybe Tan is rt.... She's gone to a better place.

But then there r some answers i want... Was i really not gud enough for her to stay with me...

Damn i haven't had a gud nites sleep since the day i put her to rest.


Maybe with time i'd start to jus remember the gud things we shared... the fun we had the first bath i gave her without havin any tears runnin down my cheek. Maybe!


But as o now... i have a prayer on my lips n tht's probably all i have. My bundle o joy deserves the best this world had to offer... how is it tht the best lasted jus so long....


Neway . it's jus some fuckedup thoughts o mine .... pay no heed!!!

Comments

RuCk FuLeZZ said…
Hey cuuuuuuuuuuuuute puppy..!!
5/13/2007 10:35 AM
Vrinda said…
i know exactly how u feel...my ten year old frizbee died while i was away on holiday...its been two years and now i have a little lab puppy but the guilt of not being there for him is still there...why do dogs have to be such amazing friends...
6/07/2007 12:33 AM
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