Arbit thoughts

Walking down memory lane, looking at pictures from the past, I linger on to this one where my dad's in uniform. Somewhere in the east I think or was it up north. I wonder. The only thing I remember for sure is his reaction to every time I called from law school. "Is everything ok? It's not weekend already is it? " I'd smile a teary eyed smile and say "naah it's Tuesday and I just thought I'd say HI!" I bet he smiled. I could hear it in his voice.

It's unbelievable that i am writing bout it ... i don't even know if anyone ever reads my blog n thinks about anything i write. but then wht the hell I'm still going to write. Till yesterday i wasn't too sure if i shud jus let it be or write bout it, but then today after meetin GD in the afternoon i jus cudn't stop myself. have u ever wondered y things happen? we always say wht ever happens happens for the best n tht god has a plan for all o us. don't get me wrong i firmly believe in him n tht he does look after ppl.. i mean i've seen prayers being answered... mine too but sometimes, i jus can't figure out his reasons or his plan... If u think life is unfair... U have to check out Death. She is worse. u never know when she might jus come for u... one min u r enjoyin urself thinking bout things tht need to be done ... the calls tht u've to make .... n u decide tht there's still time for u to do all tht... but the very next moment u r gone for gu...

If I knew you were going to leave, I still wouldn’t have begged for you to stay. I Would have given myself, yet would have been prepared.  I would have given to you one last time all of my nights and all of my days. I would held you a little tighter in our last embrace. I would have shown you the side of me that no one knows exists. I know no matter what I would have done, I’d still let you go in the end. Not because I didn’t love you, don’t get me wrong. But because I do...

Some of the dumbest questions that there are and somehow still make some sense to me... Me and my over imaginative mind keep wondering who and why anyone ever thought of em??? What do you call a male ladybug? Can a stupid person be a smartass? Do fish ever get thirsty? What is soft liquor? Where does the Nursery rhyme say HUMPTY DUMPTY is an egg head? why did Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? How does someone draw a blank? When my mind wanders , where does it go to? Do vampires ever get AIDS How can there be selfhelp groups? Do we tell the truth when we lie in bed? What is the speed of dark? My favourite ones : What's a free gift? I thought gifts were all free???? Food for thought - Fat Chance - Slim Chance.... Whts the different???

I’d had the worst day ever in college and hated everything about everything. Almost in tears because I was stuck with a bunch of superficial, snobby, miss high society girls and for me, being in a girls college was punishment enough for not meeting my expectations. Yet mum always seem to make things right no matter how bad the day had been. That day was no different, she’d been waiting patiently for me to get home. She opened the door for me and asked me how the day had been, I snapped “do you even care? Why do you ask, you can’t do anything about it can you?” She looked at me in daze, trying to understand what had led to the outburst, was it just a bad day or was something else going on underneath all the happy laughter she’d been witness to throughout the year. I shut myself in the room for as long as I could. She gently knocked, “can I come in?” She asked. “Mum I don’t have the energy to fight with you about anything right now, can we please not talk.” I said through the door. “I...

“I should be calling you Aunty, you are ‘82 born right? You are older than I am.” That is the very first thing she remembered about him and how they got talking. He was after all her Dad’s Sparrow, an officer of the Indian Army and she’d grown up with instructions from her OG Dad to always address an officer in uniform as “UNCLE” or the “Rank & Name”. She had very little practice with the later , so UNCLE came easy. “Sorry, Dad’s asking for you” She said embarrassed now, and trying to hide the  discomfiture behind her smile. “He is younger than me, I’d do good to remember that” she thought. It was a first for her. She’d never been this embarrassed ever. She did call her friends in the Army by their names, didn’t she? But that was a different thing altogether.  Later that evening at the party they spoke again and this time it was “Rank & Name”. He smiled at her use of Rank & Name, she walked away. “This is it”, she thought. Her visit almost at the fag end and o...

Winters brought along thick cover of fog that had just started to roll in. Law school didn’t give her as many sleepless nights as the two boys in her life did.  It was  2:30 am  by her watch and the persistent beep of a call waiting made her take note of the name on the screen. ‘Damn!’ She thought to herself, it was probably the fourth time this month she’d have to tell her boy that she needed to take the other call and he was definitely going to be mad at her this time. It had to be done. She made her excuse and switched the line. “Hello!”she said a little anxiously, but before she could say anything else, the drunk voice from the other end shouted joyously “Baby, I got a job, I got placed”. And she smiled. He’d called up her other number an hour ago and said the same thing over and over again till her Mother replied...”Congratulations! She’s in college son.” He then spent the next ten minutes apologising for calling in the middle of the night. But did it stop ...